Same here.
It's meaningless to understand because it isn't possible. I'm not sure what scriptures you're reading but you can't subscribe to Nihilism and still claim to be a Christian. Since I know you're a big fan of Wikis:
Most commonly, nihilism is presented in the form of
existential nihilism which argues that life is without objective meaning,
purpose, or
intrinsic value.
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If you have the nihilistic belief that life has neither purpose nor value, you cannot be and are not a Christian who, in keeping with Christian doctrines believes that life has purpose and meaning.